All my life, I have had only one goal, to feel happy all the time. I never really struggled to stay happy but I had set a tough standard for myself, which was that I wouldn’t tolerate unhappiness and dissatisfaction lasting even for an hour.
What is it that you desire? Is it abundance of wealth? Is it getting fame? Is it great health? Is it great quality relationships? Is it creating a positive difference in this world? Or is it more spiritual enlightenment and connection with the cosmos?
Humans are creatures of habit, however, you feel generally, however you act generally; you act because your present system is addicted to those exact acts and feelings.